Oct 5, 2017

30 Minutes to 21

January 28, 2011

You're turning 21 in 30 minutes. I'm not sure what to say. I've been wanting to write this since New Year's.
We really need to stop putting things off until the last minute, or 30. That's one of the things I'm asking of you. Do what you want now before you realize it's too late.

We keeping saying we'll have the rest of our lives for something but this is the rest of our lives. There's no saying what'll happen tomorrow or next week. I don know nothing will happen just sitting on that couch. And that's a bad type of nothing.

Aug 30, 2017

Don't Even Know Your Name

P (?)

I don't even have a confirmation on your name. It's not like we ever had a formal introduction.
Unless we did and I wasn't paying attention.
I'm pretty sure I'd remember that though.

There'll be other times, most likely. And I know nothing will come of it.
But it's a nice thought.

I'm daydreaming. Happy. hopeful thoughts.

I want things. And am willing to fight and work for them.
That's putting a lot on something that is never going to happen. And it will soon pass.
But I'm going to enjoy being smitten for now.

Jul 27, 2017

Some Things Never Change

C

Please do us all the favor of getting your head out of your ass!

If a tree falls in a forest and you're not around to hear it, it does make a sound.
The world continues to spin even if you're not around to see it.
Be considerate.

Stop thinking that a simple "sorry" will make everything right. Stop saying it, show it!
Prove that you're sorry.

I stopped forgiving you a long time ago.
You fucked me.

I want to be one thing but I can't be that person around you.
Fuck the whole "change your attitude instead of the situation" crap.
You're giving me a shitty situation, I'm going to give you a shitty attitude.



Jul 9, 2017

It Was Never Your Fault

Hey D,

I just want you to know it was never about you. All the tears and all the screams, they were never directed towards you. And I'm sorry you had to be there front and center for it all.

I'm pretty sure I said that through some of those tears. Of course you never would have understood that. All you saw was me in distress. All you wanted to do was make things better.

And I'm sorry you couldn't do that.
It's not you're fault, I had trouble finding who I wanted to be. And it is not you're fault bad choices were made.